It's been ages since I wrote to
you last. Not because I got so much occupied with other things but
because everytime I try to write, it takes a lot out of me. So much has
happened in between Papa which I have to tell you, so much that you
dreamt about. It's been so many years since you hugged me. I look at
your pics at times when I come home and every single time it feels like
you have gone out somewhere and will be back soon.
I know
it's hard not only for me but for every member of the family since
everybody feels the same about you. I do not have the guts to say that
Papa, you are not with me anymore but believe me till today if somebody
asks me about my mum-dad, I say they are at home. I don't know where are
you Papa, whether you are looking at us or not but I just want to tell
you that you are with me in every single breath I take.
Life
has become more about responsibilities now, the ones you have handled
for ages but I feel blessed that I am your son and wish to have you and
mum as my parents in every life. So much has changed and I wanted you to
be with me in all these moments but I really curse myself for all that
had happened. I know it's my turn now Papa as you and dadu did your bit
and believe me I am trying hard. I won't let your dreams shattered till
the time I am alive Papa but I miss you badly.
I guess I
never had this realisation when you were with me regarding what I gonna do
when you will not be there. Every time, I think about coming back home, it
kills me that you will not be there anymore.
I miss you a
lot and wanted to spend quality time with you. I always wished that but
now I am just remembering you in my memories. I don't tell it to
anybody what I feel about you dad but life seems incomplete without you
and dadu.
Life's for once and I guess I have spent that
quality time with you which I will never ever get again but I
wish to have you and mum as parents again. I hope Shaurya follow your
footsteps and become a better human being as you were. Miss you badly
dad :(
