Papa, It's been 2 years now since you left us. I am sorry if there's a single day passed by without thinking of you. Again all the things are revolving in front of me and I feel so ashamed that the time you needed me most I wasn't there. Papa, I think about the moments when you were in your last stages and none of your kid was with you and this feeling kills me completely.
I never thought in weirdest of my dreams that I will never see you again. I took it lightly and left you at your own, my biggest mistake in the life. I never thought that it will cost me your life, I am sorry Papa. Always lived with a dream that one day will stay together once I stand in my life but never thought of this time.
I just wish that if there's a next life, I want to be your son again so that I can spend time with you and live the way I wanted to. I admired you as a human being, learned a lot from you. It's been 2 years papa, didn't hear your voice, didn't saw you. Every time I think about you, I think about the moment I should be there with you but I wasn't and I will never forgive myself for this. Things would have been different if I would be there with you but It's my fate.
I don't feel like going home Papa since I know for whom should I go? There's no one to wait for me on the terrace at 4 in the morning just waiting for my arrival. Dad, I miss you - your love, your care, your guidance and feel all alone in life without you. I wish you could come back once for your son. I want to live with you Papa, this life seems incomplete without you.
I still remember your words that morning 'I will be fine beta, it's just a little pain" wish I could make it that your not in a good shape. Dad, I do not believe in anything because if a person like you has to go this way then I accept it. I will also leave one day whatever way but then at least I won't have to rely on someone whom we say "GOD". At times, I feel like for whom I am putting in so much Papa since you are not there to appreciate my efforts.
The time passes by and I know there's no way I can see you again Papa but just like you, your son is also living this life with some incomplete dreams which I know can never be fulfilled. I know its been 2 years Papa but I will keep loving you till my last breath and I hope somehow, someday I see you again in my life, Miss you Papa :(
I never thought in weirdest of my dreams that I will never see you again. I took it lightly and left you at your own, my biggest mistake in the life. I never thought that it will cost me your life, I am sorry Papa. Always lived with a dream that one day will stay together once I stand in my life but never thought of this time.
I just wish that if there's a next life, I want to be your son again so that I can spend time with you and live the way I wanted to. I admired you as a human being, learned a lot from you. It's been 2 years papa, didn't hear your voice, didn't saw you. Every time I think about you, I think about the moment I should be there with you but I wasn't and I will never forgive myself for this. Things would have been different if I would be there with you but It's my fate.
I don't feel like going home Papa since I know for whom should I go? There's no one to wait for me on the terrace at 4 in the morning just waiting for my arrival. Dad, I miss you - your love, your care, your guidance and feel all alone in life without you. I wish you could come back once for your son. I want to live with you Papa, this life seems incomplete without you.
I still remember your words that morning 'I will be fine beta, it's just a little pain" wish I could make it that your not in a good shape. Dad, I do not believe in anything because if a person like you has to go this way then I accept it. I will also leave one day whatever way but then at least I won't have to rely on someone whom we say "GOD". At times, I feel like for whom I am putting in so much Papa since you are not there to appreciate my efforts.
The time passes by and I know there's no way I can see you again Papa but just like you, your son is also living this life with some incomplete dreams which I know can never be fulfilled. I know its been 2 years Papa but I will keep loving you till my last breath and I hope somehow, someday I see you again in my life, Miss you Papa :(
